Rationalisation Needed

Ok........I can't work this one out, can you rationalise it for me and explain it back to me?

There is a job that I have applied for. I believe that I meet all the criteria, have the required experience, qualifications etc. So I sent my application, crossed my fingers and toes and waited, hoping for a response of some sort, either positive or negative.

A month went past and the job was still showing as current on the job site, but there was no closing date, so I didn't know when it was going to close. I checked the companies website to see if there was any more information on there and found that it gave the name of the HR Manager. I ummed and aaahed for a couple more days, then decided to call and ask to speak to him, just wanting to know when the vacancy close date was. I called, spoke to a really lovely lady to explained that he was in a meeting (she sounded genuine) and suggested that I drop him an email. So I did, explaining that I had applied for the vacancy and could he let me know when the closing date was. I waited a week, no reply, but the job was still on line. so I mailed again. Still no reply.

So, I just sighed and tried to forget all about it, but it was niggling me.

Then out of the blue, for no reason that I can see (and there probably is some computer related linky type thingy in the background that I don't understand at work here), The HR manager suddenly popped up on my 'could be a new contact' bit on Linkedin. I was puzzled, but as I said its probably a computer thingy. I presume.....?

Anyway, after almost another week had gone past and the job is still on line, still not showing a closing date and by now I am getting the hump a little, so I hit the button that sends a message to people not currently on your contacts list on Linkedin and thought 'sod it, I've got nothing to lose......and to my surprise he added me to his list of contacts the next day! I felt quietly hopeful that he might link me to the job ad and my application. He could view my CV and see the forums that I participate in, which all adds to my credibility to be able to carry out my chosen career path.

But I can't tell if he has viewed anything and the job was taken down off the on line website on Wednesday, but I haven't heard anything, not a dickey bird.

Now am I expecting too much, did I do wrong emailing him directly to ask a question? Why did he add me to his list of contacts, its clear from my profile that I do what I say I do, have xvz qualifications...

Maybe I am being too impatient,  too hyper sensitive, too forward........I don't know any more........any comments, thoughts, suggestions???

I can only think that they have already filled the vacancy as I am starting to realise that when a job goes off line it means the role has been filled and not that they are getting ready to interview.

Damn, blast and botheration. I think I would have liked that role.

I'm a Nanna again......

Ethan Thomas, weighing 9lbs 6oz decided to make a very speedy entry into this world after keeping us waiting for what seems like forever  :-) He decided to arrive so swiftly that DIL went from 4 cms dilated to baby delivered within 5 minutes, no time for any pain relief at all!

Mother, Father and Baby are all doing well and they should be back home later today.

I SO wish I was there.........but thank heavens for the technology that is Skype.

He is the same weight as Lewis was, but is 7 cms shorter, however he looks like Charlie from my first views of the sleeping little one.

I SO SO want a cuddle !

It may be a Royal Double...

Daughter in Law off to Hospital for Monday's check up, but I think the Bump may be on the move himself.......

Edited later.

Well the hospital have given her a room, although apparently nobody as yet has given her a check up...so as she said to me this morning, "I'm not leaving until he's out" ! so with luck, she will be right :-)

No Baby Yet

The bump has decided that he doesn't like getting ready to be evicted and has ascended upwards again so another wasted journey to the hospital. Next visit is booked for Friday.....

The baby sitter that they had booked (and have now had to pay for twice) isn't going to be available after Sunday as she starts a new job then. Son and DIL are desperately trying to find another one to be on standby and I am feeling as guilty as hell being here, when I am needed there.......

On another totally unrelated note, does anybody know what has happened to Hardup Hester's Blog, it seems to have dissapeared? Does anybody know if she is OK?

Frustrated Son and Daughter in Law

The bump was booked in to be induced on Tuesday (don't know why, just seems to be the way they do it out in Perth I think) Daughter in Law and Son dutifully turned up at hosp at required book in time, to be told go home again, we are full. Not very happy as they had had to arrange an over night baby sitter for my littlies (who, obviously they still had to pay) So they came home, a bit flat and upset and had to go back to the hosp today for an appointment and they are now re booked in for next Tuesday, assuming that the bump hangs on that long. His due arrival date actually is next Tuesday, so this week would have been a week early.

I am a little confused by all this, why does the hospital want to induce mothers anyway when there are no apparent issues with the health of the baby or the mother? Is it so they can allocate staff, or can try and arrange to not have mothers on the ward on the weekends or something? I'm not sure it sits well with me to some degree, I sort of feel like an induction is somehow messing around with nature. I know its really helpful as far as the planning ahead for babysitters and time off work, but somehow, well it just doesn't seem quite, well, normal if you know what I mean.

Is it just me? Am I out of touch with these things?

Almost Daughter

Almost Daughter gave birth to Lucas Steven at 9.47 weighing 8 1/2 lbs. As almost daughter is a mere size 6 (naturally sized) I can understand why they wanted to do a C section ! Mother, Baby, Husband and 3 and half year old big sister are all doing well !! Lovely news !!

Wobblies, and Snoring Dogs

I'm having a real wobble today. I'm not fit to be let loose in the world so I am hiding at home, cuddled on the sofa with a snoring dog, listening to music which matches my mood and weeping buckets and being a snivelling mess.

First the good news, the really good news. Himself has had most of his tests back and nothing dreadfully awful is showing up. I cant tell you how relieved I am. However his liver is showing fatty lumps and the doctor says that he has Non Alcoholic Fatty Liver Disease, (as opposed to an excess of booze which causes Alcoholic Fatty Liver Disease) which basically means that the shite builders breakfasts, the pies, the sausage rolls and all sorts of other crap STOP NOW. Even though I have been banging on about these for years (I have never been a pastry person, it just wouldn't occur to me to go into a shop and buy a pie or sausage roll to east as a 'snack' Now chocolate that's a different story.........:-).........I'll probably find out at some point that I have got Non Alcoholic Chocolate Fatty Liver Disease :-) and at which point Himself will take great delight in getting his own back.....but I digress......

If he can really get his act together now (and believe me he is trying) apparently the NAFLD can be near enough reversed with a proper diet which in turn should help to sort his diabetes out. His levels this past week have been relatively good and the doc is now holding off the insulin injections pending him losing some weight and changing his diet drastically. When we are together he's not so bad as I tend to 'control' what he eats - makes me sound like some sort of bully I guess, but I eat (I think) more sensibly than he does under his own steam. So fingers crossed we will get there and I will have many many more years of the daft old sod under my feet.

The next bit of news is that we are seriously thinking of going back out to Perth as soon as we can raise the money. The problem is still proving  to be me getting another job as I am the visa holder. Himself is at the point of 'Lets just go, Life's too short, We have had a reprieve etc ' and what will be will be. We can still stay in the 'cowshed' at his brothers place, but there is no paid work for me to go to as yet, either with his brother, or with anybody else.

And that's where I am having my wobble. Big big wobble today.

Yes we could get tickets and go. The Bump is due next week and to be there more or less straight after would be wonderful, I know how much they are missing us and we are missing them. But, and to me today, this is SUCH a BIG BUT.....I am scared stiff to go without any secure finances in place.

My head is full of what ifs'

What if I don't find work straight away - I have been trying for 4 months and nothing so far. We would be going out with little money, so could only last a short time without work and again its me that the Visa is dependant on, Himself can be a bus driver, brain surgeon or fisherman if he chooses, he has no restrictions on his working activities.

What if we have to come back? How can we afford it ? What do we come back to? We are both getting older and getting work is getting older. Having said that the dear Department of Pensions sent me a letter the other day informing me that I cannot retire until I am 67........thanks, that really cheered me up I can tell you

What would we come back to? If we go this time we would have to give our home up.

What about my dog, the one that's snuggled up next to me snoring? He has had all the required jabs to come out with us to meet Oz quarantine requirements, but I cant afford to take him right now.

My head is full of so many questions and obstacles (some I guess I am putting in the way, or I am being realistic, I am not sure which) So many Fors and Againsts. Plus a rising fear of panic which I am trying hard to sit on.

So I am sitting here with a snoring dog, who is totally oblivious to the fact that I feel like I am going mad, and cant decide what to do for the best because for the past three days I have thought my self round and round and round in circles until I have reached the point where I can't think straight at all. I think I will go and have a shower, I seem to do most of my 'better' thinking under the water spray.

I am missing my littlies terribly and they ask us more or less everytime we speak when are we going back to their house.......

On another note, I am sitting here waiting for a telephone call. My Almost Daughter is in hospital today having a planned C section for her second baby (First beautiful daughter was an emergency C Section). She didn't to know what it is, so today will be a lovely surprise for her and her hubby. I wish them all so much love. And then next week (also a planned arrival unless he arrives under his own steam) Grandson number 3 will arrive. And they STILL wont tell me what his name is to be............that really winds me up !! :-)